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Reason #983….

… on the list of why I love Kathleen. She can still share a laugh even in the shittiest situations. Last night was a constant barrage of nausea and vomiting… Often it would just be a deep burp, but you never knew. The PSW and I were sitting on either side of the bed, somewhat anxiously waiting for the next time…. Barf or Belch? Then, cutting through the quiet like a bull in a china shop, Orville on the couch let out 3 seconds of “BUURRRRRRRRRRPPPPP“. We turned in awe at the shear volume of it and Kathleen said, “Excuuuuuse me!” All three of us just laughed and laughed.

Belching Dog

In the continuing shell game of symptoms, the vomiting was better controlled this morning. She had a bit of challenge swallowing and keeping her heartburn med down, but eventually managed to. The doctor found some sublingual versions that will allow her to just metabolize it in her mouth and not have to worry about swallowing. But then the horrible back pain returned. Our friend Jan had to use every trick in the book to get her comfortable and now has been sleeping since 11am.

Sometimes it feels like some terrible Greek fable where the central character has to pick 3 afflictions from a list to endure. Not like there are “nice things” on the list.

Vomiting
Profound Fatigue
Constant Nausea
Intractable Pain
Fear
Delirium

Pick three. But when its just physical, her presence of mind is quite amazing. Last night was like that. She was tired, she was barfing up any bit of water she would swallow and in some abdominal pain…. Yet she could still laugh a little, and still try and enjoy a few more moments together.

—Mike

About In the Cancer Bubble

I am Kathleen's partner of almost 25yrs supporting her through this very tough and rough spot.

5 responses to “Reason #983….

  1. Carl Miller ⋅

    thanks for your e-mail Mike. Thinking about the two of you every day.
    I will be in touch. love to you both Carl & Dan

  2. Fran Fisher ⋅

    I love how you love Kathleen! Hugs to you both. Fran

  3. judy ⋅

    Hi Mike ,
    You are the nice thing in the box.
    Love Judy

  4. fjheath

    So sorry the journey continues to be rough, glad there are still moments of light.

  5. Malou ⋅

    Thinking of you both Mike and Kathleen and sending my prayers and love. Thanks for sharing the best of moments through all of this. My heart goes with you both.

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