What, you thought it would be smoothing sailing for all ? 😉 Rough night for Kathleen. Her TPN was changed to have less calories since she is eating a little more. Smaller volume infused over 8hrs. If we do it at night, that means no more than 8hrs sleep. With some early AM nausea and vomiting, we were up for about an hour… I forget when. 3 ish ? Had to hook up some gravol, but it was not soon enough so emergency barf bowl got used. We are both pros at this. Even before the Cancer, my job often gets me up in the middle of the night, so that part I am used to. But we are all humans of course. So you get irritated. Me, lack of sleep will add up and make me irritable. Betty, our cat was irritated as well since I had to get up and disturb her happy sleep. The dog was annoyed because I had to turn the light on. Kathleen was irritated by the pain, the pain meds, the nausea, the vomiting, the somewhat uncomfortable sleep in the chair, and oh, I guess the cancer in there as well. The nurse too had a nice start to the day with her car window breaking. I only spoke to Elaine briefly on the way out, but she had forgotten her purse at our house last night with her cell phone in it, so that too no doubt irritated her. So, a grand intersection of irritation.
You forget that inside the cancer bubble are all the ‘normal’ problems of life. Before having been taken away in the bubble, I would have thought that ‘little things’ would no longer be bothersome, but in some strange way, they are no different. Its true, some ‘problems’ are no longer on our radar, but oddly enough there is a class of annoying things that are the same– annoying. I will have to think about it more on the dog walk tomorrow. Orville always has an answer 🙂